Forever Alone!!!

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You think you own me Try to control me With your words...actions...opinions Please know what you have to say Means nothing You doubt me You say I can’t do this I won’t accomplish that I’m not sorry my dreams are to big For your small mind to comprehend Dreams are dreamt By the strong and brave at heart By those who believe in themselves And have the drive to finish What they have start Don’t doubt me Because I have faith In what I’m capable of doing Don’t hate me For the way I talk about My dreams becoming a reality Don’t speak to me About your negative view points And question how I will get there Just know that I will indeed get there Your hate...your doubt Is the fuel to my fire of desire Desire to prove you wrong Because while you’re sitting there Bathing in your jealousy I’ll be thinking to myself Watch Me

I'm not a good friend

These words I never thought I'd hear, but heard. Those weren't the exact words but my own. I'm not a good friend. It hurts. It sucks. But what can I do but try and change. You don't believe me because all I do is seem to lie. I can't get around that... I did what I did and I'm sorry. You say only time will tell, but I feel maybe time is beginning to run out. You're leaving in some months, and I feel all I'll be is a distant memory. But what does it matter if I allow you to have no purpose in my life...If I don't give you purpose in my life. I want to open up to you... I want my actions to follow my words when I call you my best friend. I closed up and I don't know how to open back up. Do I want to be labeled as not a good friend or actually work towards being that good friend? I honestly don't know because there's no way of starting over. Being a bad friend will always be held against me. Lying. You can never trust a liar the way you trusted them the first time...so i ask myself what's the point of even trying. But I allowed that to fall upon me... I made this happened. It's my fault. It's me. It's me. I just don't know anymore.