Pain

Laid in the shower for a good 30 minutes just crying and screaming. I probably could have stayed in there forever as the water just hit my body. A part of me felt at peace in the water, another just wanted to fill the bath tub and just well you know. There's nowhere to go but up. Can't say I've hit rock bottom maybe I have but hopefully I've caught myself before I actually hit it only time will tell I guess. Sigh. SMH. I guess I should get dress.