Is this it?

IDK. I feel as if my head is on a different head spin right now. Maybe I am out of the storm. I am doubtful of it sometimes, but maybe this is it. Am I really ready to move on now? Maybe it did have to take me screaming at the top of my lungs in the car to get over myself. To stop thinking so much about the future and the past and live for today. To live for me and me alone right now. To do what Keena wants to do, and not what every body else says do. I feel as if my heart is content. I deserve to be happy, and my happiness is what I'm trying to pursue. I can look at her page and see in a relationship and my heart doesn't ache anymore. I feel as if that's a good sign. -shrug- I hope this feeling doesn't go away. I've been waiting for this content feeling, and I feel as if it's here. I hope it's here to stay for awhile, because those ups and downs were becoming overrated. Like for real for real... and I was the one causing them. To think, I was my own wall standing in the way of my contentment. Who would have thought?