Lost it

I've completely lost it. Cried for a good hour because all of this damn anger I feel. All I can do is fucking cry. If this is rock bottom, well damn it i'm here. I'm just fucking angry.. I'm angry at you for moving on. And it pisses me the fuck off that I'm not able to be this way. People expect me to be mad at you and just move on because you did. I'm fucking angry because it seems as if no one fucking understands... and the one person who i feel would understand me is the one who has moved on. Now I know how you felt when he moved on. I feel that anger and it sucks ass that i feel you can't sympathize with me. I want to throw things, and just break something because that's how I feel. BROKEN, and I don't know where to start in placing these pieces back together. I'm tired of pretending that i'm happy all the damn time when i'm really sad, alone, and frustrated with life. I understand I need to move on with life... but this sucks major ass hole.